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to-have / to-buy (or sell) list [2009]
gaming rig before december comes.new earphones / headphones fallout 3 collector's edition call of duty modern warfare 2 left 4 dead an o level cert books / comics And Then There Were None / Agatha Christie A Certain Slant of Light / Laura Whitcomb Chosen, House of Night / P.C. Kristin Cast New Moon / Stephenie Meyer Eyeshield 21 Illustrations FIELD of COLOURS Vampire Knight Volume 8 Vampire Knight Volume 9 i can like numbers
i don't remember.. |
need i say more?
figure the navigations on your ownyou can thank me later. enjoy. in memory of Raihan, 16 October 2008 we miss you dearly. |
oh yeah? i'm designing a set of characters for the story. i'm designing their uniforms, too. they're visible at my dA. |
what. szeh 6ix April 1992 huh i like cakess pastry anything that's vanilla mammals, birds and all reptiles fruit milk and cheese drums books poetry reading cooking baking stories art photography pictures vehicles eating writing gaming shopping music mythology paranormal flowers linguistics foreign money anime manga drawing bells i collect foreign / local money manga (only those that i really like) books games ornaments plushies board games stationery dictionaries pencil cases drawing blocks / jotter pads notebooks recipes anything that is cute (i.e. food erasers) i cbfed with humbugs and twits. |
HEY WHAT'S GOIN' ON you'll be safe if you listen to: "Complex Image" by Ayane i am just toellie crazy for katekyo and eyeshield 21. what i am watching / reading: i'd be lying if i said nothing. Fairy Tail [Anime] Naruto Shippuden [Anime] Katekyo Hitman Reborn! [Anime] Kimi ni Todoke [Anime] Kimi ni Todoke [Manga] Kimi ga Suki [Manga] Sprout [Manga] A Spot of Bother [Book] what i have watched / read: Zettai Kareshi [Japanese Drama] Nobuta wo Produce [Japanese Drama] Hachimitsu to Kuroba [Japanese Drama] Kurosagi [Japanese Drama] Nodame Cantabile [Japanese Drama] Hanazakari no Kimitachi e [Japanese Drama] Hana Yori Dango [Japanese Drama] Hana Yori Dango 2 [Japanese Drama] Gokusen [Japanese Drama] Boys Before Flowers [Korean Drama] Witch Yoo Hee [Korean Drama] My Name is Kim Sam Soon [Korean Drama] My Girl [Korean Drama] Goong [Korean Drama] Spirited Away [Japanese Animated Film] Howl's Moving Castle [Japanese Animated Film] Tonari no Totoro [Japanese Animated Film] The Cat Returns [Japanese Animated Film] Final Fantasy VII Advent Children [CGI Film] Ouran Koukou Host Club [Anime] Kanon 2006 [Anime] Spice & Wolf [Anime] Ghost Hunt [Anime] Jigoku Shoujo [Anime] Karin [Anime] Rozen Maiden [Anime] Rozen Maiden: Träumend [Anime] Rozen Maiden: Ouvertüre [Anime] Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge [Anime] Claymore [Anime] Tonagura! [Anime] Fruits Basket [Anime] Gakuen Alice [Anime] Chobits [Anime] La Corda D'oro [Anime] Ergo Proxy [Anime] Shugo Chara [Anime] Full Metal Panic! [Anime] Clannad [Anime] K-ON! [Anime] Hatsukoi Limited [Anime] Toradora! [Anime] Fate/Stay Night [Anime] Zettai Kareshi [Manga] Chobits [Manga] Alice 19th [Manga] Akuma de Sourou [Manga] MARS [Manga] Bloody Kiss [Manga] Othello [Manga] You're My Girlfriend [Manga] Taranta Ranta [Manga] Bitter Virgin [Manga] Sold Out! [Manga] Beast Master [Manga] Cat Street [Manga] Imadoki! [Manga] Koukou Debut [Manga] The Girl Who Leapt Through Time [Manga] Otomegokoro [Manga] A Child Called "It" [Book] The Raging Quiet [Book] The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time [Book] Pendragon: The Merchant of Death [Book] a million little pieces [Book] Tears At Bedtime [Book] Marked, House of Night [Book] Betrayed, House of Night [Book] Twilight [Book] After the Funeral [Book] and some others that i can't recall. |
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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
AHHHAHAH •
i just got Marked by PC and Kristin Cast! (yesterday) wooyeahhhhhh. oh, that phrasing's good. i wish i were Marked. it's just awesome. that book. i'm halfway done. i think it won't be long till i get the next book. shit. here i go again, buying books and more books. hahah- i need a job.went to interchange with kathleen yesterday to meet yampaste and olie. met olie on the bus, and yampaste with their coursemate jeremy. walked about and watched them eat at pastamania, and to times then to sansbookshop then to toysrus then to the bakery then to carts cause olie wanted to get shorts. they're all pink! haha! to times, sans then times again because i wanted to get Marked. oh i'm starting to like the title. it wouldn't sound that good if i said "to times, sans then times again becaused i wanted to get Twilight(ed)"? oh haha nevermind. i'm going to get Twilight, still, anyway. to the bakery because i wanted to buy some kathleen-influenced-spongecakes and YUMMEYYY i devoured them while watching television after i got home. and i didn't go to school today. somehow somewhat for some reason, english lessons have gotten dull. and there's nothing for me to do during mt. i've been really interested in clouds and such recently. i find them to be really amazing and pretty and i like them. mountains too. i like natural things, not fake things.   this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 8:14 PM.Tuesday, May 26, 2009
ohhhhhhhhhh no. •
 Mt. Assiniboine in Canada. it has a pyramidal peak. SEXY MOUNTAINfrom my nightmare encyclopedia, if you're interested :d haha i love emoticons. :d :d dreams of you being chased by something: if.. IF YOU EVER dreamt about you running away from something on some stranger alley / road / platform / lane / path / thesaurusplease, knowing that the human / monster / thesaurusagainthanks is within a distance where it / she / he can grab you, it normally happens after you experience a traumatic incident or when you are involved in other kinds of stressful situations, although the visions are often more specific and clear when caused by a trauma. the most common emotions that evoke these particular "picture metaphors" are extreme fear, vulnerability, and even guilt. i like Dani California man. LOTS. i've looped the song like fwice. falling: everyone has either had a falling dream, flying dream, dreams in which you are naked, or an examination dream before. i said either i didn't say all of those. i've never had naked or examination dreams before. and in your falling dream, you feel afraid right? i don't know about you but when i have falling dreams, they feel realistic and i can feel the wind beating against my face and all that. the book says that some biologists suggest that our fear of falling comes from inherited fears from our distant ancestors' practice of sleeping in trees to avoid predators. if you don't understand why, it's because if they fall they get eaten by the predator. geddit ok. however, some psychologists have theorized that our fear of falling arises from the uncertainties and hurt we encountered as toddlers when we first attempted to walk. i think i'll just type out these 2 for now, since they happened to me before. i haven't had a nightmare in a long time. and i really mean LONG TIME. even normal dreams are sparse. booorrringggngngngnn. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 4:36 PM.Sunday, May 24, 2009
:o •
...my word.i failed math for mye. i failed social studies too. and i know the reason why and the reason is because i didn't memorize formulas / topics. not like i was able to absorb any ss skills in class, anyway. i didn't study for my mye (except for chemistry, i studied for it and though i highly doubt i'll get any kickass results, i'm starting to like the subject a lot :]) so i got to for the imminent exams. regardless of whether they're major or minor or in between. my brother brought me to simlim and funan yesterday to check out some laptops. he said a laptop is better because in almost every poly available, it's sorta compulsory to own a laptop. my brother's wife i mean my sister-in-law also said that in the poly you see everyone around you smashing the keys of their laptops so that's how it is. and i'm the only one in the desktop gang. i want a desktop really. i want a desktop 1st. i'll get a laptop 2nd. but those are after my exams. i'll be getting a new phone 0.5th in September. ALRIGHT! but that's under miscellaneous. so it's not really important. the gist is that it's breaking breaking beyond repair beyond salvage beyond anything that can help it. it's tearing apart from the core of the ribcage away from it's only sturdy protection. it's crying like a lost child like a homeless man like an adult who got retrenched. it's exploding like a time bomb that ran out of time like a grenade like a thrown water balloon where the balloon will remain broken and won't ever be fixed even with the best glue even with every tool available in the world. it's crushed like a can of fizzy where the fizzy is gone like a delicate glass ring under a pair of military boots. it's fading like bleach on a stain like the daybreak. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 3:08 PM.Saturday, May 23, 2009
dog town blood bath rib cage soft tail •
"standing in line, to see the show tonightand there's a light on, heavy glow. by the way, i tried to say i'd be there." - RHCP i love RHCP. like fucking love. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 10:39 PM.Thursday, May 14, 2009
crank that. •
 Kanda Yuuuuui spent my morning and bits of my noon making chemistry notes in an exercise book. i have too much of those, anyway. but i still buy notebooks on impulse once in awhile. last night i negotiated with my mom and she agreed to give me allowance daily during the june holidays. and i'm glaaad. starting from yesterday onwards i'm eating at home because i don't wanna spend too much cash on food outside. everything from lunch - dinner. i'll still eat during recess, but perhaps i'd bring food to school occasionally. ALL FOR MY COMPUTER :D i wanna get a proper one ASAP. i like helping my mom in the kitchen anyway so, it's not a chore for me. eating at home, that is. i'm taking a break from chemistry. i'm overdosed with chemistry today, and i figured that it's actually not that tough if you understand what you see in your question. i know most of the students in my class or school or this country has more or less figured that is EXACTLY how you should deal with chemistry but that's EXACTLY why i am slow in subjects that require you to digest formulas and rules and whatever, which is exactly (again) why i am weak at maths. BUT i am trying. i'm sure i can pull it off. if not now, then the next test. because i didn't study for math in particular for my mid-years. it's over, but my prelims and O levels aren't. i got a chemistry and math assessment book yesterday. was using the chem assessment to help me with the notes i made just now. i haven't drawn anything lately, i kinda miss it but somehow for some reason i can't bring myself to do it. i've been feeling everything lately too, from happiness to whatever you can think of. it's like me blending strawberries, and the next moment someone adds some bittergourd and chilli. i can imagine the taste. it'll be the best drink in the world. they say nothing is impossible. yeah, nothing is impossible, alright. it's impossible to have nothing. and if nothing is impossible, go out at night today and bring me the moon tomorrow. since nothing is impossible right? bullshiters. go eat some shit. and if you rephrase it to everything is possible, it still sounds wrong. as wrong as the original. so don't use crap. please. for brain's sake. for the past few days, i've been thinking about what's happening to me and my friends and everything else, and i've been having difficulties deciphering the codes and undoing the knots in me. i don't know what caused it, i don't know what happened before the codes and knots appeared, and i don't know why i have them. just somehow somewhat for some reason, they're there. in my mind, and in my heart. occasionally i feel so sick of it and so tired of everything that's happening and i just wanted out. i just felt like letting it all go but i couldn't. for the past few days i fought with myself and debated with myself about ideas i have in mind that might be appropriate for my situation but no. there was no outcome. i couldn't let go, i couldn't for the past few days but now i can. i discovered that there's no way we can force our way onto a friendship. every friendship is different and unique, and if you don't belong to the one you're trying to get on board, then you ought to leave it. leave it far far far behind. don't get close to it. the sea is big. the world is big. there are still tonnes and kabillions of friendships, and you can try to get on every single one. there will surely be one that will accept you. don't plant a fir tree in the desert. don't put your hand to a dog's muzzle to make it lick you. don't try too hard so you won't hurt too bad. don't keep your eyes open in bed because you'd never be able to see your dreams if you're not asleep. don't just don't don't don't. i just recalled. kathleen, it's not that marcus :) i just remembered that i've seen him last time during our BBQ outing last year. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 4:53 PM.Saturday, May 9, 2009
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....gosh-darn excursion on 2nd june. heritage trail thingie or whatev. i don't hate heritage trails but hell, it's on the 2nd of june? is my school a boycotter of the sims 3 or what. i was like HAHA WOOT when i saw the word "excursion" but then in a total state of ohmylard after i started reading the details. it's just too much for a coincidence. oh, darn darn darn. shit shit shit. it's compulsory too, that thing. i wanna experience what a launch party is like but HEY THANKS I LOVE HERITAGE TRAILS THAT LASTS FROM 8:30AM - 6PMso i asked my brother if he could help me. he said okay, because coincidentally he took leaves from 2 june - 8 june. sigh. i'd really prefer going to the launch party myself, though. since- ARGHHHH NOT LIKE I CAN ATTEND IT. i was asking my friend if i should just take an mc for that day so that i can attend the launch party. hahaha. it's mad, but well.. since my brother is going to be free to help me on that day, i'll just have to make do with that. sigh sigh sigh. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 7:16 PM.Thursday, May 7, 2009
rofl •
 Ritsu from K-ON!i made dinner today. i tried making mango cream puffs but sheet because the filling didn't turn out right. i'm still better off making durian puff fillings. they're the easiest. anyone who's interested in swimming twice per week please tag me at the shoutboard. and i mean swim, serious business and not fooling around in the pool. i just got my new specs and i'm not used to it YET because the frame's different. my old frame has the lenses closer to my eyes, this one's different. i hope i get used to it soon. it just feels weird. and i preordered my sims 3 collector's edition (pretty belated. it happened last sunday but fruckare) thanks jo for accompanying me to T1 that dayyy! i'm gonna go for the launch party on the 2nd of june to collect my game. FFFFFUKYEAHhhhhhh other than that it's math paper 1 tomorrow boo. i can go after the paper yay. the weather's giving me a headache. ouch ouch ow yeow cecelia, whenever you're online or appearing offline or etc, why don't you send me a nudge. you can call me too if you like; any time after 9:45 am tomorrow would be great. much appreciated. we need to talk :) my bro's moving out in.. 2 days. i'm gonna miss him, but i'll be getting my own room.. i don't know if i should feel happy or sad. sigh. well. if you hadn't noticed i added a Stash as one of my blog navigations. you'll see it if you hover your cursor over the navs long enough. if you wanna know what the heck the following paragraph is talking about then you should go click on it. *** Prologue The room was stark and cryptic like my mind. There was nothing but coldness around me, but my neck felt even distinct chills... I knew that there was something atop me. What was it, I wondered? The hands around my neck began to tighten. I felt its steady but cold breaths against my forehead. I could make out as much. Whatever that was on top of me was definitely larger than me; and there was no way I could escape. I closed my eyes. Nothing would make a difference. There was no way to identify my killer in that dark and gloomy room. Its chilly fingers adjusted themselves to get a firmer grip around my neck, and began tightening again. My lungs started begging for air. The need for air dug into my chest like shards of glass but I ignored them and refused to gag for what they require. My life was ending. Here, with an unidentified killer, in my own bedroom, on my bed, with me pretending to be asleep. My life was ending. *** the weather's so hot my stuffed toys are sweating. i don't need to turn the switch on to use the oven. when i take an egg out of the fridge, it's half-boiled. you can sell your toilet heater to cash converters. i don't need to go out of my house to get sunburnt. i don't even feel like writing on anymore. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 8:54 PM.Friday, May 1, 2009
black eyed peas •
i still listen to their songs. hahah.went out at night with kathleen to the bookstore. I GOT MY GOSH-DARN DICTIONARY. it's red and hardback. kathleen witnessed it. spent some time looking at the books but i got a dictionary in the end. went to the playground near her place and chit-chatted for a few hours. i told her about my father's parasomnia (in the past) where he stood on his bed while my mom was sleeping and adjusted their wedding photo. my mom woke up when he stood on the bed because there was pressure beside her. she's pretty sensitive to things happening around her. and my father was still asleep when he did that. sleepwalking. it was something funny, though it'll be an eye opener to see something like that with my own eyes. common reasons that cause someone to sleepwalk is when that person is overly depressed / anxious / due to psychological factors / it's just in them because it was passed down by his ancestors. it is possible for a person to carry out activities that they usually do when they're awake when they are sleepwalking. things like driving, cooking, or like my dad, adjusting the wedding photo EVENTHOUGH i don't see him doing that when he's awake. maybe it's something kept in the back of his head or it might be something he wanted to do but he kept forgetting to all the time. most of the time, sleepwalkers don't recall what they do when they sleepwalk. i'm tired and i have no mood to do anything at all. AUGH fruckin weather. subway is awesome. FOX'S Berry Mint tastes like Läkerol's Cassis. i'm done with my book, and i'm done posting. this bear watched the cloud beside it as it shitted stars while smiling at 1:24 PM. |